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You mistimed your call but that's okay. I'll still get back to you. Leave me a message.
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It's what he worried would happen. That Chizuru was too naïve and nice and innocent, giving Jinx a chance, but when Jinx didn't change fast enough, grind down all the jagged parts of herself that cut and stab and slice people who get near her to pieces, it would all implode on them.
Should he tread carefully? Avoiding saying things that might set her off even more and send her spiraling? He doesn't know how close to the edge she is. Or should he be honest and let the consequences come what may?]
everyone is different.
none of us have the same lives
same baggage
same view of the world
same way everyone has lines.
what matters to us.
boundaries that if someone crosses we can't ignore.
ignoring them means we have to look inside
ask us what it means about ourselves
if who we are stacks up to who we want to be
some people will never get how you see things
because to them you can't just know it's bad.
you have to understand why it is.
i wish you did.
but i know you don't.
and maybe you can't right now.
and i've accepted it.
i wish it was different.
but i know who you are.
i know what you've done.
i want you in my life anyway
i made that choice.
but i can't look at an enforcer and trust them
because i know what enforcers do
enforce is just another word for oppress
they beat us down
they sell us out
they kill us
because to them it's like gardening
cutting out what they think is weeds to keep their prize flowers blooming
and they enjoy it
they probably even talk shit to each other about it
and if i heard an enforcer joke the way you do
make fun of hurting zaunites like that
i'd break their skull in
because that's my line now
but guess what?
back in zaun
my line wouldn't have included you.
because it couldn't.
things change.
people change.
you've been changing.
i see it all the time.
maybe they want to be where you're at
but they aren't
maybe they'll get there
maybe you'll get to where they are
maybe it won't happen
and you'll go do your own thing
and someone else will come along
and you'll be where each other needs to you be
all you can do
is keep living in the present
moving forward in the now
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there's another slow respond coming from her; a big contrast to how fast she's been texting back. )
i dont think i want someone to come along anymore.
all this stupid mushy stuff about friendship and love and happiness. and joy...
it was stupid for me to think someone like me can have those things.
im better off w/ sticking with my weapons and...sit alone until this town does something whacky.
when it does, kill whatever is a threat, then when its over? just go back into the shadows until it happens again. maybe im suppose to live like that.
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[He types it in and sends it so quickly he hasn't even formulated everything else he wants to say. But he feels is deeply. Just no. It takes a bit more for the rest to come out.]
that's bullshit.
you have more friends around here than i do
maybe you haven't found the right person
or built up the right relationship yet
love ain't instant
it can take time
one failed relationship doesn't mean you never try again
never let anyone in again
you're not someone who gives up
don't give up on yourself
i'm not.
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or theyre not giving up on me.
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spent enough years doing it.
turns out giving up on your family sucks
even if they might deserve it.
and shit's different now.
this ain't zaun.
we have a chance here.
if there's no way we're going back
i want to take it
make something out of it
with you and vi.
it's not about you
it's for real selfish
i live in the now
make life mine whatever way i can
and i want that life with you in it
to do that i gotta accept you as you are
i know you can do better
be better
won't be easy but you can
when you're ready
but i accept you as you are now
and i'll see where things go from there
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I MUSN'T FALL AGAIN! THE TRAGEDY OF MY ACHING SOOUUUL! 💗💗💗💗🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣
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but.
thnx, ekko. rly. this is rly nice of u.
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i've had practice with this inspirational speech thing
works out best when you mean it
besides
i'm still being selfish
do you know the kind of faces vi makes when you're sad
not putting myself through that
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you know she's gonna be all up in your business
trying to fix things
it's what she does
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sometimes i like it when shes smothery like this and sometimes i hate it.
( ... )
hypothetical question. if and i mean BIG IF.
i offered u a bond w/ me, would u be interested? not a blood bond but. a bond u can kind of turn on and off whenever u wanted.
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But that doesn't mean never, does it? Things can change. They keep changing.]
maybe.
not now i think.
want to have my own shit down first.
paleblood shit i mean.
but maybe later.
if it gives me a means of knowing if you need help
faster than an omni
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a blood bond isnt what i was talking about anyway.
see.
vi and i got this gift from a friend. rings.
and u can be in each other's head. know what we're thinking and all that.
we tried it one time and it rly rly freaked out vi
so we havent rly worn it since.
but u know. u kinda already know how my head goes w/o needing the ring. so idk. i was just throwing a thought that maybe u can handle it better?
AND itll prob fit u since vi has fat fingers and all that.
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And here Jinx is wanting to use them to make them closer, give them a bond. A bond they might not be able to control if it messed with the shit Ekko already has going on. But on the other hand...]
maybe.
paleblood does shit like that on its own
dreams, minds, visions
it pulls you into all of them
i can't really control it yet
we might not be able to turn it off like you think
you cool with that?
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risk and danger is all I KNOW!!
wheres the fun w/o that? hmm hmm HMMMMMMMM?
but like u said.
dont have to be now.
maaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaybe later. besides. i still KINDA wanna dangle u over a shark tank from time to time.
and knowing U, u prob dont want me to think that way of u AT ALL if hypothetically we do this lil pinky promise bond.
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lets go with that.
no point rushing if neither of us is ready.
later.
we've got time.
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and u better not get use to it either.
u get one freebie thnx u out of me.
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i'll just wrack up you owing me favors
and use them for thank yous
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i dont owe u anything.
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you'll need my help with something
and i'll get those thank yous
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just like im not going to help twist urs.
but its cute to know u'll be sitting there wishing for smth that will never happen. every day ur disappointment will fulfill me with satisfaction.
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i know how this will go down
i don't need to do anything
it'll happen
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here u go again w/ ur stupid
"I KNOW EVERYTHING. IM SOOOO SMART. I CAN PREDICT EVERYTHING"
blah blah blah me me me yak yak yak blarg and bloof bablafia.
this is why RIGHT HERE that i want to throw a monkey bomb STRAIGHT at ur face and have the cymbals SHUT that stupid wannabe know it all mouth. 😤😤😤
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but i know you
i bet i could tell you exactly what vi would do too
family's like that
but sure
go ahead and surprise me
you're good at that too
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