[Shit. It's pretty obvious to see where all of this is coming from, what must have happened for Jinx to be asking these kind of questions--to be dealing with this level of confusion and...hurt? Yeah, he can see how this probably went down and none of it looks good.
It's what he worried would happen. That Chizuru was too naïve and nice and innocent, giving Jinx a chance, but when Jinx didn't change fast enough, grind down all the jagged parts of herself that cut and stab and slice people who get near her to pieces, it would all implode on them.
Should he tread carefully? Avoiding saying things that might set her off even more and send her spiraling? He doesn't know how close to the edge she is. Or should he be honest and let the consequences come what may?]
everyone is different. none of us have the same lives same baggage same view of the world
same way everyone has lines. what matters to us. boundaries that if someone crosses we can't ignore.
ignoring them means we have to look inside ask us what it means about ourselves if who we are stacks up to who we want to be
some people will never get how you see things because to them you can't just know it's bad. you have to understand why it is.
i wish you did. but i know you don't. and maybe you can't right now.
and i've accepted it. i wish it was different. but i know who you are. i know what you've done. i want you in my life anyway i made that choice.
but i can't look at an enforcer and trust them because i know what enforcers do enforce is just another word for oppress they beat us down they sell us out they kill us because to them it's like gardening cutting out what they think is weeds to keep their prize flowers blooming and they enjoy it they probably even talk shit to each other about it
and if i heard an enforcer joke the way you do make fun of hurting zaunites like that i'd break their skull in
because that's my line now
but guess what? back in zaun my line wouldn't have included you. because it couldn't.
things change. people change. you've been changing. i see it all the time. maybe they want to be where you're at but they aren't maybe they'll get there maybe you'll get to where they are
maybe it won't happen and you'll go do your own thing and someone else will come along and you'll be where each other needs to you be
all you can do is keep living in the present moving forward in the now
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It's what he worried would happen. That Chizuru was too naïve and nice and innocent, giving Jinx a chance, but when Jinx didn't change fast enough, grind down all the jagged parts of herself that cut and stab and slice people who get near her to pieces, it would all implode on them.
Should he tread carefully? Avoiding saying things that might set her off even more and send her spiraling? He doesn't know how close to the edge she is. Or should he be honest and let the consequences come what may?]
everyone is different.
none of us have the same lives
same baggage
same view of the world
same way everyone has lines.
what matters to us.
boundaries that if someone crosses we can't ignore.
ignoring them means we have to look inside
ask us what it means about ourselves
if who we are stacks up to who we want to be
some people will never get how you see things
because to them you can't just know it's bad.
you have to understand why it is.
i wish you did.
but i know you don't.
and maybe you can't right now.
and i've accepted it.
i wish it was different.
but i know who you are.
i know what you've done.
i want you in my life anyway
i made that choice.
but i can't look at an enforcer and trust them
because i know what enforcers do
enforce is just another word for oppress
they beat us down
they sell us out
they kill us
because to them it's like gardening
cutting out what they think is weeds to keep their prize flowers blooming
and they enjoy it
they probably even talk shit to each other about it
and if i heard an enforcer joke the way you do
make fun of hurting zaunites like that
i'd break their skull in
because that's my line now
but guess what?
back in zaun
my line wouldn't have included you.
because it couldn't.
things change.
people change.
you've been changing.
i see it all the time.
maybe they want to be where you're at
but they aren't
maybe they'll get there
maybe you'll get to where they are
maybe it won't happen
and you'll go do your own thing
and someone else will come along
and you'll be where each other needs to you be
all you can do
is keep living in the present
moving forward in the now